IT' S A BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Crazy is probably the word I would say to describe me. But then there is a certain sense of calmness in this craziness. I have been immensely mad since time immemorial and this phase is yet another madness in time. But how can I forget that this madness only brings me to yet another phase in which I really cannot recognise myself. Incognito! I wish I could understand this plain and simple madness but it is somehow beyond my comprehension… beyond my understanding…! Help me..! but who is going to do the honours now of pulling me out of this quagmire? Only I know…but how I know not. It is like a huge pit where the huge deep river flows like no tomorrow. Like a mirage on the river.. river??? What the heck? Don’t I know that there can be no mirage on the river. But who said that in the first place? Come on out here. There’s going to be a duel now. A mirage on the river or the desert. Alright, no takers for this. I win hands down….thankyou….thankyou…all…yes..yes.. Mom, Dad wish you were here…..thank you God. It’s a pleasure that you are not here for once! You have always deserted me at a time when I needed you the most. Wow! So much for God. Yes..my baby told me about destiny….that he believes in it…Destiny! What the heck is that? I wish I knew that well. For now I think I will just believe in myself and cut the crap and just get on with it. Hello.. anyone listening to this in the first place? I am and I have a little blue bird observing me in my madness…hey, Birdie. Come here and sit with me. What do you want to have? Some wine, champagne or just plain water. Okay. Don’t get irate now and stop calling me names or I will just whack your head off. My goodness. Have I become a killer or something? Looks like I have. When ‘whacking’ and ‘killing’ are words to die for, then I too can turn into a cold blooded murderer. Yes and walk in the stealth of night and kill them. I wish I could just pounce on them and scare them to death. That would be fun! Talking of fun…I wanted to ask you. What is fun? Is it running naked on the beach, climbing up the walls of the Utopia range with scorpions following closely or closer to home, just walking head over heels on the roof top while the fire brigade guys come to save you. Ouch! That hurts! But where is the pain…aha! That’s another question I wanted to ask you. What the heck is pain? There are bunches of knots inside me when I get all warped up like a witch. But what about your pain and mine? You have an answer. I don’t. I wish you would tell me. I know you will cause you love me. Hmmm…Love is another thing I have a lot of questions about. But it’s alright I guess, not to get love and to have any knowledge of it. Arey Wah! I sound very crazy saying all this but I have already told you that I am mad. So there goes my sanity down the potty. I have flushed it where no one can find it. Hurray!